I am sick of building snow castles only to be deflated by your venomous words.

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supposedly the air get punctured
with your wild initiations
of ridiculous jokes;
I will take flight against the final layer of oxygen
to deprive of you that luxury.

since the more, your words slash my skin,
the more I am unable to recuperate
from the deadly mystery
that has surrounded me like a plague.

I can’t request you enough
to not torture me like this,
but the more I say,
the more you laugh at the absurdity;
since your likes have only savored
it’s own venom
that’s sweet to your own mouth.

I am not fit to disentangle
you from my ribcage
but I am sure I can if I am strong enough
to discard you from my lungs;
but somewhere inside
the compassionate me
cries at the possible exertion,

and I wonder… why can’t you see…

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you and I can never be a melody of soothing lyrics.

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I pulled,
yet another verb
from the white lifeless canvas-
and the origami in my hands,
took flight.

I watched it
from my doorstep;
unknowingly
waiting for a
non-existent footstep.

you see,
the rose in my hands
knew how to draw blood;
playing
you love me not,
while watching random shows
of couples kissing
under the moonlight-
a dream
I dreamt
not too long ago.

do you mind?
let’s paint nothing
in this blackened night sky-
and laugh
as the stars diagonally shoot
lightening bolts
in our depressed monologue.

but it all ends
as the foam bubbles out
from my lips;
and the more I convince
you are there for me,
the more you vanish
leaving behind tiny imprints
of faded graffiti
on my staccato brain.

listen;
to this deliberate cacophony
of my disembarked hopes
and compose a melody
with my silly love notes.

but wait till
I wash ashore,
so that you can find my chipped promise
in my palm;
crumbled… yet beating
in the name of you.

dear,
for the last time,
can you sleep with me
in the folds of my sleepless nights
and color
my life in the shade of your eyes?

for I have lost
the hang of being alone;
since you have never
left me
yet you are nowhere I can see.

I know,
if you put a bullet into my head
and as I bleed crimson giggles;
you will still be there
warming my bare bones,
but laughing with the others
for pushing me down.

can you do me a favor?
as the new star dawns out on the horizon…
can you vanish like the rhinestones
from my liquid vision
that seems to dry even more than
last year

I do have a desire
to die leaking pink sonnets;
than mosaic smiles.